The rapid intense drumming pulled me almost immediately into a sensation of movement. Suddenly I am skimming through the air over a sparkling sea, as if I am an eagle. The reflection from the water is almost blinding. There is so much light it is almost golden. I am moving very fast across the great expanse, but I can see I am near land. The shore is cloaked with great pine forests. I can smell the fresh sea air and the green fresh forest scents, the damp cool humus of the earth beneath the trees and I can feel the exhilaration of the breeze on my face and arms as I move along.
Many salmon leap out of the waves and swarm beneath the surface. Mermaids flick their tails at me in greeting and dive beneath the water. I can see a great wide stream pouring into the ocean here and I move toward it up towards the rocks and follow it into the woods.
I come to light on a huge stone outcropping overlooking the river. A large bear is next to me and he rears up on his hind legs, but not in a threatening manner. He nuzzles my hair with his muzzle. I stretch up & put my hand over his heart and ask, “Brother Bear, are you my totem animal?” “No sister” he says, “not today, keep searching.”
He walks with me into the forest where I meet a large wolf who comes at once to my side. “Greetings brother wolf!” I look into his beautiful blue eyes and place my hand on his shoulder. “Are you my totem animal?” “No little sister.” he says, “Sometimes, but not today.” I will walk with you while you search.
We walk along the forest path. Sunlight streaks down through the trees in dapples and sudden shafts of light. A red fox springs onto the path and skips along close to my ankles. “Greetings! Are you my totem animal?” I ask. He tilts his head , “Not today, my friend. Another day, perhaps.”
The path winds through the woods and into a huge meadow. Birds flit over head and in a rush of wings, a huge flock of moths zooms overhead brushing my hair and waving their feathery antennae at me. Before I can ask them anything they are gone. Suddenly hundreds of rabbits are frolicking in the meadow running this way and that, zigging and zagging. I watch them for a few minutes, delighted. Though they acknowledge me joyfully none of them stop or come quite close enough for me to ask so I just enjoy their presence.
The wolf nudges me and we slip back under the canopy. On a low branch sits a blackbird. His feathers are iridescent purples and blues. His eye is bright gold. He plucks a feather from his wing and extends it to me in his beak. He tucks it into my shirt. “Take this feather” he said. “Keep it in your heart.” Then he said, “Sing your joy into the darkest night and you will be heard.”
He hopped on my shoulder and we went into the meadow to watch the rabbits they went in a wide circle around me and I started dancing and twirling and spinning. There are no voices but I can strongly feel the messages, “You are on the right path.“ and “ Use your voice.“ Then I am up skimming the water again and coming back into my body.