I'm tired of washing my face with my own tears!
Alone in the dark
Was the only time I showed emotion.
Well, I've cried enough to fill the damn ocean!
I know it's cliche, but it falls right on the mark.
I'm all fucked up, it's no excuse!
And somehow I've avoided a noose
Of my own making.
Tried to steel my heart and make it hard.
Predators,
Still find it all too easy for the breaking.
So am I barely alive? Should I be proud,
To have just survived while fooling all the crowd?
"See me, I'm so happy!"
For a shattered child the world's a stage,
An aid to lock the pain away, conceal the rage!
Now come you out of old dreams! Light as air move like a breeze.
Well who the hell are you? Still I recognize you!
You offer me a sweet release. Could letting go be so easy?
Unmoved by my screaming! And you stand by
Everything you promised me a hundred years ago.
How can I help but hate you so?
To make an end I must begin.
So, the way out of this is to go in,
Running through the fire.
Although I've never learned to swim,
For you I dive, All my masks drop like a whim!
Shedding the skin that conspires to confine!
And you lightly rattle my issues
Like you were merely dusting off your shoes,
And I am falling!
To dance off this cliff would be so nice!
Is it my fear of heights that leaves me stalling?
Just pretend it all happened to someone else!
Don't be affected by every touch and smell!
Erase it from my mind!
Just want to get on with a life.
I've tried in vain to break it off leave it behind.
Now come you out of old dreams! Light as air move like a breeze.
Well who the hell are you? Still I recognize you!
You offer me peace. Then you challenge me!
Unmoved by my screaming, and you stand by
Everything you promised me a hundred years ago!
How can I help but hate you so?
Now come you the "fearless" sage! A welcome foil for all my rage.
Well who the hell are you? Still I recognize you!
Your feet seem planted on the earth, but true wings hint of your rebirth
Unmoved by my screaming, and I'm suddenly
Trusting that you gave me ribbons long ago
How can I help but love you so
And I don't know how but still I know
And I don't know how but still I know
That I've already watched you come and go
A hundred years, a thousand times before
And I don't know how but still I know
And I don't know how but still I know
That I've already held and let you go
A hundred times, a thousand years or more