It's been an okay day and yet I can't beat the loneliness and sadness back.
I had to leave my kitty alone. I feel like I am abandoning her. Every time I have to leave I am acutely aware that she's getting old and that she is drifting away. The renal failure is making her lose weight. She's actually a nice weight now, but the loss, without me putting her on a diet, is concerning.
I'm down in San Carlos again sitting for the Vizsla people. Boy are they barky and active this time. I'm worried that the girl is going to destroy something and I'll be in trouble.
I'm just sad. I wanted so badly to have a Happy Birthday this year, to make a fuss over myself or more appropriately surround myself with friends who might make a fuss over me. So wistful. I had asked a friend a few months ago if she would plan me a party, but then she had a serious medical emergency and was recovering from surgery so I was not about to bring it up again. My friend Oliver, who works at Pixar, mentioned getting me in to see a screening of, A Wrinkle In Time tomorrow night, but I haven't heard back from him yet.
I have been making multiple posts about a show that is actually happening ON MY BIRTHDAY: My friends Brian Kenney (Brian Kenney Fresno) and Paul Striker (Dr Striker) are playing. No one has responded, My roommate might go with me. But really, my fantasies of being surrounded by friends being entertained by wacky antics and groovy tunes and maybe getting a wee bit tipsy are quickly deflating.
I had to leave my kitty alone. I feel like I am abandoning her. Every time I have to leave I am acutely aware that she's getting old and that she is drifting away. The renal failure is making her lose weight. She's actually a nice weight now, but the loss, without me putting her on a diet, is concerning.
I'm down in San Carlos again sitting for the Vizsla people. Boy are they barky and active this time. I'm worried that the girl is going to destroy something and I'll be in trouble.
I'm just sad. I wanted so badly to have a Happy Birthday this year, to make a fuss over myself or more appropriately surround myself with friends who might make a fuss over me. So wistful. I had asked a friend a few months ago if she would plan me a party, but then she had a serious medical emergency and was recovering from surgery so I was not about to bring it up again. My friend Oliver, who works at Pixar, mentioned getting me in to see a screening of, A Wrinkle In Time tomorrow night, but I haven't heard back from him yet.
I have been making multiple posts about a show that is actually happening ON MY BIRTHDAY: My friends Brian Kenney (Brian Kenney Fresno) and Paul Striker (Dr Striker) are playing. No one has responded, My roommate might go with me. But really, my fantasies of being surrounded by friends being entertained by wacky antics and groovy tunes and maybe getting a wee bit tipsy are quickly deflating.
ON A MORE INSPIRATIONAL NOTE!
Today being International Women's Day, I have to say, I am lucky enough to know a lot of amazing women! I wanted to name a few of the ones who really inspire me on a daily basis, who make me think, laugh or challenge me when I read their posts, women who have persisted and spoken up, continued despite racism, sexism, disabilities and other people's perceptions. Some of them are writers, musicians, social workers, artists, photographers, activists and some are all these things. Some have lived fascinating lives and what they are famous among their friends for is their kindness and how they make others feel. These are women who are confidently themselves and put their heart and soul into whatever they do: art, social justice, motherhood, their style!
I thought, I'll pick out 10 and name them here. Hmm. Maybe 20. Oh geez. Look at all the amazing women I could name, easily over a hundred who just rock my world. I narrowed the list down to 30. I wish I had time today to write a bit about each of them. Maybe I will go back and edit this at some point.
Here are just a few amazing women who you should maybe consider following (Not stalking, following) and keep an eye out for. If I have left you off, it's only because this list is so big already! If I had champagne in my hand, I'd toast you!
Here's to:
Sheila Chandra
Autumn Tyr-Salvia
Meeks Baker
Victoria Victrola
Sumiko Saulson
Morrighan Desiree Bigelow
Rebecca G. Wilson
Mayu Ko
Danni Quitter
Cameo Wood
Jessamy Barker
Sharon Knight
Annika Mongan
Adrianne Street
Lorelei Aradia Snow
Kristen Oliver
Kate Martin
Linda Graniero
Victoria Slind-flor
Dana Hopkins
Crystal Blanton
Elizabeth Branson
Irene McCalphin
Amelia Hogan
Amy Hale
Theresa Sawyer
Lorraine Belcher Chamberlain
Cat Foshee
Kelsey Jacobsen
Valerie Mossman-Celestin!
(and those I did not mention) Thank you for being brave, outspoken and inspiring, for adding beauty to the world, for making this a better place for women and everyone with your words, actions, work and art!
I thought, I'll pick out 10 and name them here. Hmm. Maybe 20. Oh geez. Look at all the amazing women I could name, easily over a hundred who just rock my world. I narrowed the list down to 30. I wish I had time today to write a bit about each of them. Maybe I will go back and edit this at some point.
Here are just a few amazing women who you should maybe consider following (Not stalking, following) and keep an eye out for. If I have left you off, it's only because this list is so big already! If I had champagne in my hand, I'd toast you!
Here's to:
Sheila Chandra
Autumn Tyr-Salvia
Meeks Baker
Victoria Victrola
Sumiko Saulson
Morrighan Desiree Bigelow
Rebecca G. Wilson
Mayu Ko
Danni Quitter
Cameo Wood
Jessamy Barker
Sharon Knight
Annika Mongan
Adrianne Street
Lorelei Aradia Snow
Kristen Oliver
Kate Martin
Linda Graniero
Victoria Slind-flor
Dana Hopkins
Crystal Blanton
Elizabeth Branson
Irene McCalphin
Amelia Hogan
Amy Hale
Theresa Sawyer
Lorraine Belcher Chamberlain
Cat Foshee
Kelsey Jacobsen
Valerie Mossman-Celestin!
(and those I did not mention) Thank you for being brave, outspoken and inspiring, for adding beauty to the world, for making this a better place for women and everyone with your words, actions, work and art!
A Spot Of Absurdity!
Don't make me drink alone! *Appropriate Mermaid Pout*