It's so tempting to believe that ignorance really is bliss, but it's just a thin veil keeping you from seeing the sharks swimming around your feet!
Hmm. That would be better if I kept up with the ocean metaphor. How about:
It's tempting to believe that ignorance truly is bliss, but it's just a small blob of seaweed keeping you from seeing the sharks swimming around your feet!
It's a very strange feeling when you realize someone is trying to "lie" you out of existence or at least try to rearrange the facts to suit their cover story. Suddenly you've been put in the thick of something you'd rather avoid and been erased from something you participated in with pure love and honesty.
I feel like I was targeted, hunted and toyed with.
I am not a friggin' mouse!
And, as was said to me by someone who is still a completely gullible wackadoodle with her own special reality (but in this case is correct), "Fortunately, what you also know is that it's not actually personal. It's that person's habit to do to same to all the women in his life. He both convinces you that you are a very special person in his life while in the same breath denying to others that you exist.
You are just another person that he tagged with his ugly graffiti along their way. He's working his way around town with his paint can of deceit.
You feel that way because you were. Appropriate response!! I have been thinking today about how I made myself a target for the same man before you. Disturbing, but instructive."
You are just another person that he tagged with his ugly graffiti along their way. He's working his way around town with his paint can of deceit.
You feel that way because you were. Appropriate response!! I have been thinking today about how I made myself a target for the same man before you. Disturbing, but instructive."
Ouch! That hurt!
MORE OUCH!
I am so ready to finish off the trials and tribulations crap so I can go back to being my shiny happy self, if not 24/7 a whole lot more of the time. Tough weekend and must everyone's caught up in their own stuff but I love and know I'm loved!
Doh! Of course no one's free to help me move stuff this weekend. It's Easter! I imagine my friends are pretty tired of the whole moving here and there scene by now. And it's impossible to get schedules to work.
It's not that people don't care. It's no one's fault. It's just the way it is. I just need to come up with some cash and hire some help or maybe I just need to let it all go. All I know is, I can't keep the juggling act up anymore. Too many limitations because I can't do it alone. I cannot physically do it! I don't have a truck. I'm not that strong.
I haven't been able to deal with storage the way I need to, I haven't been able to get my stuff out of temporary place number one and it's already time to get stuff out of temporary place number two!
It's not that people don't care. It's no one's fault. It's just the way it is. I just need to come up with some cash and hire some help or maybe I just need to let it all go. All I know is, I can't keep the juggling act up anymore. Too many limitations because I can't do it alone. I cannot physically do it! I don't have a truck. I'm not that strong.
I haven't been able to deal with storage the way I need to, I haven't been able to get my stuff out of temporary place number one and it's already time to get stuff out of temporary place number two!
WHAT ABOUT LOVE?
Trying to decide if it's really a compliment when 20 somethings are sending me messages on OkCupid, especially when they have so little of substance to say that I can't even think of a clever response. Yawn!
The past couple of years the young ones seem to think I'm hot! While guys my age are lookin' at 20 year olds. Whaaa? I suppose I appreciate the attention but I do not want to have a relationship with a boy. That said, some of the 49 year olds I have dated were little boys too. Sigh.
I have several pagan friends who've met great guys on there but so far, "yawn" It is a challenge to find single, heterosexual, pagan or pagan friendly MEN period, especially non poly men. Funny, their little algorithm keeps suggesting guys I already know. Some of their profiles are pretty amusing too. Then again, overall, there seem to be a lot of creeps on there.
The past couple of years the young ones seem to think I'm hot! While guys my age are lookin' at 20 year olds. Whaaa? I suppose I appreciate the attention but I do not want to have a relationship with a boy. That said, some of the 49 year olds I have dated were little boys too. Sigh.
I have several pagan friends who've met great guys on there but so far, "yawn" It is a challenge to find single, heterosexual, pagan or pagan friendly MEN period, especially non poly men. Funny, their little algorithm keeps suggesting guys I already know. Some of their profiles are pretty amusing too. Then again, overall, there seem to be a lot of creeps on there.
SPEAKING OF CREEPY...
Speaking of "Mr Creepy's" I had a bit of a freak out moment tonight trying to figure out how someone found out I was going to an event when I didn't put that info out in in any online space he has access to. Something I didn't put together initially. I was passing some info on and then realized I didn't know how he knew what I was doing. Totally creeped me out!
The thought is that perhaps a friend or acquaintance I'm unaware is mutual told him. Sick of all this convoluted stuff and wish things could just be completely open, period! Wish this person would just go away! Relationships! It seems like the last two were more trouble AFTER they ended!
The thought is that perhaps a friend or acquaintance I'm unaware is mutual told him. Sick of all this convoluted stuff and wish things could just be completely open, period! Wish this person would just go away! Relationships! It seems like the last two were more trouble AFTER they ended!
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