A QUIET PLACE! SO GOOD!
This is my kinda horror movie; storytelling over shock value, but still scary. I haven't enjoyed being this stressed out since, The Witch! The obvious comparison is probably, Cloverfield but this is a hundred times better in every respect. (And I enjoyed Cloverfield)
Also, coming home I realized even trying to be quiet, how much damn noise I make. I would be so dead!
STARTING OVER AND OVER
Then I realized that I could save the strain of one more start on my dying battery by using the drive through at the pharmacy. Even though it was a long line, hot and all those idling cars were fecking the environment, just for today it was a win.
However, not such a win when I discovered that one of the two medications that the specialist prescribed is no longer covered by my insurance, that my out-of-pocket cost would be around $220, and of course the alternatives they will cover are both medications that I have at home which actually make my condition worse. My doctor can send in some forms explaining why they should make an exception and cover the medication but this could take a couple of months and I don't even have an appointment with her for three weeks. My other options, which neither me or my doctors want would be to do is a steroid injection or just suffer.
I suffer a lot because I am poor. It sucks that health and quality of life come at a high price in this country. Between copays I can't afford and things not covered that I can't afford, I have to choose to not take some of my meds as prescribed and for others, not take them at all. Usually my prescriptions cover 90 days, but if I average it out monthly I would need about $300 a month to cover the deficit. This is actually pretty good compared to what some people's medications cost a month. Thanks Obama!
I can count on having a lot more pain and discomfort and living a much shorter life than those with the privilege of money and good health coverage. And the longer this administration and congress stays in power the shorter my life is going to get. If you voted for these jerks this is just one of the things you voted for. Thanks.
BUT I GOT STUFF DONE!
- I made it to therapy. I was late but I made it.
- My car didn't leave me stranded.
- I got two of my three prescriptions
- I took a me short but sweet me break, sat on a sofa at Peets and read.
- I'm pondering a book review I promised to write and am really in a quandary over whether to write a favorable or scathing review.
- Had a lovely conversation with a young woman at Peet's born in Papua New Guinea who was adopted by white Americans.
- Did all the grocery shopping and will be cooking some mighty feasty meals this week.
- Found reasonable parking. Now I just have to hobble home! My left knee in particular has been so painful latel
- Still gotta cook dinner for us nightbirds.
Also, is it bad that I've been kinda excited that my therapist's internship is ending in a couple of months? As much as I hate change, I'm secretly happy that I'll have to transition to another therapist.
He's had a few good moments but mostly, it's just so obvious that by afternoon when we have our appointments that he is tired and sleepy. Sometimes he nods off. He's really passive and can't keep track of time. At one point he tried to make it my responsibility. He still lets me go over all the time.
AND..... TA DA! DINNER!
Voice From Behind The Hippie Curtain: Mmmmph reammmplegmf -OOD!
Translation: It's really good!
Submitted for your approval:
- Salad greens with arugula and herbs, tomato, avocado, cucumber, olives, sunflower seeds and kidney beans.
- Cheesy garlic fries.
- Decadent Sammich: Whole wheat baguette stuffed with pesto, brie, also mushroom Brie, eggplant, red pepper, rosemary, mushrooms, spinach, olives and veggie sausage. All nice and melty.
This chipping in on foods is working out pretty good. Plus, with cooking and shopping I feel useful.